I'm getting kinda old and I wonder what kind of life I want for myself long-term. I don't think I can maintain a long-term relationship but I still want some level of companionship that last years or even the rest of my life. I wonder if I could find someone I could just live with without it being sexual or awkward like dating. Like a roommate you spend the rest of your life with. No sex, dating or romance but just being there for eachother in a platonic way. Maybe I want to adopt a kid or maybe I just lost interest in relationships as a whole? I just know I get lonely very easily and I try way too hard to befriend all my coworkers and neighbors. I always want someone in my life even if it's just a casual acquaintance to talk to.