/s4s/ - anime pillow fight

>>43270 (OP) 
*hughug you'll be ogey

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>>43271
>>43272
thamk u

>>43270 (OP) 
Waaa?

>>43224
reminds me of my mom. i know the trauma goes deep. i always hide it by pretending i'm a nothing and a nobody who barely functions in society. sometimes, when i actually look, i can see the same pain in others' eyes- i know they hide it the same way i do. behind the glamorous illusion society comfortably provides, within the depths of hedonistic pleasure, which superficially masks the real pain inside. i'm at the point where up is down and down is up, and i can't find my bearings at all. all is confusion, which is a disturbing grief, tightly wrapped around my mind, constricting it and making me suffocate within myself. i know no sanctuary from the horrors of this existence. even in my dreams, i am persecuted by my conscience. 

existence is not just eternal suffering, but perpetual horror for me. any chance at salvation has left me long ago. now i sit here to bear witness to cataclysmic catastrophe as old prophecies are fulfilled. my fate is sealed.

good thread

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>>43237

why are alcoholics so based and sexy and dangerous

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>>43275
lole

>>43275
it's the unpredictibility

the mind of the savior is the quantum mind

>>43259
that's right

>>43257 (OP) 
i saw that pic of kurumi on x earlier and got a boner, waht a cute little butte

in society, no matter how hard i fear my position won't be secured, as long as i jump through the hoops and show my obedience to the system, my conformity, then i am rewarded. that is where the true struggle lies for me because conforming to those standards means to forsake myself and forget about everything that helps me be who i uniquely am. i forfeit my strengths and learn vulnerability, not the humble type, but that one which leaves you deeply insecure and constantly questioning your place in life. is it a small price to pay for being able to participate in society's games? i don't know, that's what i'm constantly grieved about. my point is that being able to function within this society, means deep dysfunction within myself.

when it comes to matters of judgment, i know it's not going to be half as easy to live a life of righteousness, one pleasing to God. i know i can't just jump through the hoops and guarantee my superficial position in the eyes of others, but i need to live with strong conviction in my heart, with a real unconditional love for others, that i struggle to find. all of my personal burdens weigh me down. it isn't any excuse, but i know that holding onto all this baggage only turns me selfishly inwards and away from any chance at giving or receiving true love and fellowship within others. for me, like the way that society convinces me, as long as i can jump through the hoops, i can pretend for long enough that i am saved, but i still live with a knowing 

>>43124 (OP) 
u actually look really cute here
goddamn now i wish u were my husband

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>>43143
whats stopping you c:

>>43145
im an ugly man :c

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>>43157

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>>43157
can you be my sugar daddy

>>43206
i am 100x worse than you

>>43207
lol

im turning this off
too sleepy
nini

i guess i can charge it a little and keep it on for a bit while i sleep
im curious if i stabilize during slep

m gona try taking a beta blocker

uhhh... ur mum lole

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>>43242

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>>43244
i forgot the jk

bump so I remember to forget wish birthday

is that so

>>12094 (OP) 
can i come 2 ur birthday party plz i got u a present

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>>43215
please be there!! 🎀🎀

>>43222
yay thankyou ill make sure i come :DDD